The Minivan and My Pride
Isn’t it funny how certain things can be a hang-up? For me (one of them!) is owning a minivan. We always knew when we started another adoption that we’d have to buy another car. And this has been a point of discussion for several years. Well, not so much a discussion because J always knew where he stood on the issue and so I just sought to find other options – before giving in knowing that he was right.
All along, I was hoping that some great new car would come out that wouldn’t be SUCH a gas guzzler as a SUV and have all the room of a minivan.
Unfortunately, I have yet to find one.
So about two weeks ago we found this ad for a Honda Odyssey that was for sale in NC. We drove the 2 1/2 hours to test it out. The kids loved it and wanted to buy it on the spot. J thinks it is a great deal with everything we’d ever look for in a new vehicle. And for a minivan, it seems like a good one.
But that pride is coming up from the depths.
“I have to drive one of those?”
It has been a week or so and I am pushing back on that pride. Trying to let go of my own silly desires. It reminds me of an Andrew Peterson song, “I am a family man/ I traded in my mustang for a minivan/ This is not what I was headed for when I began/ This was not my plan/ I am a family man.” (Only 1. I am not a man and 2. We don’t have a mustang.) Regardless, the song goes on to say, “But everything I had to lose/Came back a thousand times in you/ And you fill me up with love…
Our goal isn’t to have everything WE want here on earth. Often times, what we want is actually not what is best for us anyway. Our desire to bring in another soul who needs a forever family is so much greater than my own pride. Everything I lose here does come back multiplied in the gift of children and life.
So here it goes…
tomorrow, we’ll be the owners of…
PS-for a (bit cheesy) version of Andrew Peterson’s Family Man: http://www.godtube.com/watch/?v=92CM1FNU